I woke up this morning to find a bird flying in my loft. How did it get in, you wonder? Seriously, the only possible way it could have managed to get in here is through the elevator shaft. Even that is questionable, due to the size of the bird and the opening left for it to manage its way in. Either that or someone planted the bird in my loft.


I believe either it hurt itself from flying into the glass, or it is seriously attempting to hijack my loft. As of now it is hiding behind my paintings or behind the side of the couch.

Ok I am going in for the kill...well in this case the rescue?....*picks up broom and decorative pillow for the couch*


Ok so the bird just showed itself and flew at the window until it managed to feel for the opening...and successfully took it! * with the guidance of my shouting.."It's open, the window! It's open!..." over and over while waving the pillow towards the opening of the window. *



Thank you very much nature for that....now for some more coffee.

So I am over this impending feeling of doom...not to say it is gone, I am just not going to focus on it. I am in the mood for some serious life altering changes to come this way... I need to mix things up for a bit, my way of living recently, has driven me almost completely insane. I am bored out of my mind....I have become lazy to the point of almost no return...Ok maybe not as lazy as one can get ,but lazy beyond reasonable taste. When I speak about being lazy I am really talking about the big picture of life as opposed to the smaller details. So this has been kind of a scare tactic my subconscious must have pulled to get me to be motivated enough to do something with my life. It's working.

I still need to find a job, and with some quickness....my cash supply is running low...and I have a ton of bills that are over flowing into even more debt. If any one can help out, or let me know if they hear anything that would be great and very much appreciated. Since my phone is turned off it has made this process even harder....I will have to go back tomorrow and re visit all the places I applied at to check the stasis. brutal.

I am single again and am really looking forward to taking the time to adjust my life as I see fit. There are alot of options for me as of right now....Most of them require some kind of cash deposit to get the ball rolling...so it has been pretty depressing seeing all these options and knowing I can't make the move yet. I just pictured a black panther, ducking down in the jungle somewhere, ready to pounce on it's prey. That about says it all. I feel like i am stuck in that moment. brutal.


I think I just need to hang out with some friends more often. Only problem is lately I have become very unsure of who is my friend anymore. Could be mostly my fault.. although, I feel like it would be unjust to say that is true.... anyway, I am hoping this summer will bring about a social life that I can feel good about. Just having more people in my life who I can relate to and feel close to would be nice. Having some social network in which I feel supported would help. As of now I feel I have been walked over for the past year or so. I am not sure what took me so long to admit this to myself...or really why I put up with it at all.



Long story short....oh wait.



My focus today is art.

I just got back from Richmond VA, Saturday night. Working on stuff for the movie. We accomplished alot, I believe. I had a really great time there, and although it wasn't necessarily a Kung Fu oriented trip, I believe I gained alot of Kung Fu. I left my phone charger there so I haven't really been able to contact anyone... I feel like I need to spend time outside of this loft. someone save me from absolute boredom and isolation. Please.

Every since I got back to Detroit I have had this feeling of doom. I guess it is just the welcoming home feeling. ehhh...or something.

Speaking of Kung Fu......
I am going to experiment with an hour long Sil Nim Tao.

The Detroit Seminar is this weekend. Luckily I was able to get Today through Monday off of work, thanks to my awesome manager Joe. wooo hooo! I am really looking forward to this weekend ,and I hope for some major breakthroughs for everyone involved. I believe this will happen.


This weekend will be great, I have a feeling....



Now time to finish preparing....

So this year has brought alot of change to the table so far. I have a new job working as a waitress at Pizza Papalis in Greek town. Although I'm still a waitress, I feel it is a positive change. Kirill moved to South field to watch over his parents home while they are away in Siberia. Sifu has moved into the loft here at the Atlas Building. Seems to be a positive change for everyone involved.... hopefully everything continues to progress naturally.




Now I am looking to save up some cash flow and pay off some debt in the meantime.

Kirill is singing in Russian and playing the guitar. It sounds very nice,I enjoy his voice.

Hello New World!

Sooo my search for a new job has begun! We shall see where this opening leads....



In the mean time....more artwork!


http://www.flickr.com/photos/lauraannsphotography/

Seems to be a positive achievement.





Whoa. What is with that ladies voice? creepy.

Looks fun though, that would be kind of cool if those replaced cars...

seems to be quite calm for such a night of celebration. dumplings, movies, beer and of course a couple of friends make a pretty good night if I do say so myself.






although I still feel as if something is weighing on my heart..




Hopefully a trip to the zoo will fix that.

With another year about to pass,
looking back to see grains of sand
slipping through the hour glass.
Darkness pouring over this once vigorous land.


Wasted time caresses my body like a plague.


Is your time well spent?
Can you say you did it all?
What is stopping you?
Alas! break through young soul!

Visions arrive,
embracing this moment.
Recreating dreams,
which are kept alive,
in the chambers of my heart.
My compass reads north,
onward I press!
Wind fiercely whipping in my face,
yet my body remains warm!
I welcome the New Year,
sending all regrets away.
I will no longer take part,
in the ceremony of mourning,
for I now celebrate the sky,
no matter the suns position.

My spirit now lifted,
all disease forbidden in this land!

I'm feeling really good about where things are heading right now.

I see things coming together very nicely and I am really looking forward to this new year.
I am figuring alot of things out about myself and the way in which I work. It is very exciting for I feel as if I have broken through this barrier that has been blocking my path for quite sometime. I am very excited to begin an array of new projects come January.

I spent pretty much all day yesterday cleaning and re organizing the loft. Wow what a difference. So much more to be done though.

It is amazing how much of an impact ones environment effects personal health. I actually feel better when things are organized and clean. It makes sense though...



'As above so below. As within,so without.' The Emerald Tablet

touché!

I took this test January 26th 2006. It is interesting to note that my percentages in stability (36%), orderliness(26%), mystical(50%),religious(10%),materialism(10%),work ethic(23%),and wealth(10%) is very close to doubling or more in some cases. *(2006 percentages)

The percentage went down about 20% in both Hedonism and Narcissism. Adventurousness decreased by 60%...hmmm that doesn't seem accurate, but possibly. Conflict seeking went down 20%,Romantic minus 67%, avoidant minus 27%,anti-authority minus 20%,Change Averse minus 27%,individuality minus 27%, sexuality minus 20%,histrionic minus 26%,and paranoia minus 54%

Whatever all that really means....

http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/janine_benyus_shares_nature_s_designs.html

So inspiring....

Wow, so it has been a month since I have updated this.....

After doing some math ('pushing numbers' as Kirill likes to call it.) I figured out I got jacked by DTE. They owe me about $480.
Step one : initiate jack attack sequence.
Step two : wait for their office to re-open Monday. Those fuckers are lucky it is the weekend.



Also after realizing I got jacked by DTE I decided to go through all my old Sprint bills too and make sure the math added up. Jacked. only $18, but jacked none the less. I will deal with those guys later....


So alot of things are up in the air right now. Well ok I will have to admit most things are settling back down now, although one question is left unanswered. Ok alot more than one! haha....but the one that remains crucial right now.....

I need a room mate! Who needs a place to live?

I live in a very nice Studio Loft in the Eastern Market, on the 5th floor of the Atlas Building. Rent is a total of $550 and DTE is $220 a month (costing each person $385 a month)
Comes with one bathroom, one bedroom and a big open space. Obviously another room would have to be built but, there is more than enough room to do so.(and of course I would go half and half in costs. which I am estimating to be about $150 - maybe $200 each) Also comes with unlimited exercise. You will see what I mean the first time you come and visit the loft =]
Plus, there are huge windows and a pretty decent view from this floor.

And how could I forget! Also comes with a composting area ;] (thanks to Gwen and myself! woo go team!)

Anyone interested, or knows anyone who would be interested let me know! I need to find a roommate within a month!

Front view of Atlas Building

Back view of Atlas Building


The Wayne State semester is on the verge of ending! Although I am not going to be taking classes there next semester, I am going to deeply miss doing so. This is ok because I will be back in action there again next Fall Semester. This Winter I am going to Focus on Training Kung Fu, saving up alot of Money and doing some projects I have been putting off for what I feel is too long.


Oh and one last addition....Go see the new James Bound Movie: Quantum of Solace
It was a really good action movie!

On that note I am off to the market to stock up on some deliciousness!

Tallest Man Meets Smallest Man



weird yet amazing.




So I feel my training beginning to develop into a new realm of possibilities. If it hasn't already been taken there. Things are opening up quite quickly, I have to be sure to take advantage of these situations coming forth. What those possibilities entail I'm not quite sure. Maybe just that I have a new level of training to explore and with that comes many more adventures and life lessons. wooo =] There are a few projects that come to mind, that I know must be acted upon now. Quite exciting times to be had.

I am officially confused. Is it a good idea to recycle plastics, or is it actually worse for the environment? I am not sure. While doing some research on-line I am finding many contradicting articles. It seems like using plastics in general are a bad idea, but now that we have started using plastic as a source, recycling that plastic is better then just throwing it away. Which I'm not even sure if that is entirely true, because some are arguing, it is better for the environment to not recycle plastic at all. Well which one is it?

Hmmm more research needs to be done.


Also I believe until I find an answer I am going to avoid all plastics. I am going to stick strictly to beverages in glass containers, and from now on I am going to be one of those people you see in line at the grocery stores who bring their own cotton bags. I always thought that was kind of silly, but hey I guess it makes more sense in the realm of recycling. I mean if you are going to really do it, you minds well go all the way right?


I have been trying to find creative ways to reuse everything. burnt out light bulbs can be turned into an art project (makes for a good way to decorate for a party or just for fun, you can paint over them and tie them together with string/ribbon!), bottle caps can be made into buttons (technically not my idea but a good on none the less), coffee cans into sugar containers and tea holders (which I plan on painting or making some kind of college to decorate it with), I am trying to figure out what I can do with empty milk jugs...bird feeders perhaps? hmmm I will have to think about this one. Anyways bottled water has become quite convenient, but buying a Brita filter and reusing an old glass container as a water bottle is probably more economically friendly. You save money in the long run and you don't have to use plastic. wooo! Or at least you can reuse an empty plastic bottle, instead of buying a new one every time you want water.



Oh also you can reuse coffee grounds as a fertilizer for your plants/yard!

"Compost Porridge
After chopping up kitchen waste into dice size pieces, place in blender and add minimum water to grind mixture into thick like porridge consistency. Mixing the porridge it into your brown yard waste helps to quicken the decaying process and avoids little chunks of kitchen waste from surfacing when you mulch. Also, if it is winter time you can easily freeze the porridge as it takes up less space as non-chopped kitchen waste. Not recommended to be served hot with milk and brown sugar." http://www.ehow.com/how_3541_begin-compost-pile.html


If anyone else has an ideas on how to reuse things you would normally throw away or recycle let me know! Thanks =]