So I am working on getting my stuff together financially.....apparently I will have to find a new job yet again....hopefully this location change will work out at Starbucks...If not then I have to start from scratch with the job thing. argh... so frustrating.

Going to have to go to the department of human services to see if I can get some help with my DTE bill....hopefully it will work out.


Also, This month is my sisters Birthday =)
So I get to spend some time with the fam and celebrate Michelle's Birthday woo hoo! looking forward to that... Also I am having an art show at the loft next Saturday...should be an interesting event....I am releasing my first book of poetry, and there will be other artists involved displaying art.... it should be a good time for sure =)









As for school I feel like I am kind of behind...although for whatever reason studying has been a major challenge for me...I must over come my laziness and get on with the studying....I need to find a better way to absorb the information...Also I need to manage my time better....I have pretty much spent the entire week resting and hanging out...Doing alot of stuff but also neglecting other things....so now I have to focus on the things I have been neglecting...I need to work out that balance....for sure.

I am watching the world in a way that can not be told.
Some one once told me to watch it again.

know yourself before you judge others.
what is good for you should be good for the person next to you.

Tons of stuff happening lately.....more on the way.

Working on poetry .... trying to keep up with school....not very motivated in this area...well maybe not motivated...I have the motivation I am just lacking the focus and concentration...I need to build up some momentum and get out of this resting period.


I feel as though I am putting out so much energy, this winter is going to be one gigantic wave of energy returning.



now how to use it properly....working on that still.

and yesterday is reborn...
you look out and see what is directly ahead of you...
it changes...always.
change is good.
I can only do so much....
search for the light in everything. it is there.
take responsibility.
what is best for the whole is best for you.
protect the truth.
use holy words when you speak.
search.
feel your surroundings...they always change....change is good.
search.
keep going...it is an infinite line.
we meet and part but always stay connected.
did you search?
we are the language that they speak....search.
sometimes the simple things remind us of our roots.
be clear. know yourself before you judge others.
what is good for you should be good for the person next to you.
find the way.
it is so easy!

This weekend I had a yard sale at my parents house...made some cash...got a chance to spend time with the family. My Aunt, Cousin and nephew came over and helped out with the yard sale. To be honest we didn't really sell as much as I thought we would have originally. Still had an ok weekend though. Got a wicked sunburn on my back...it is healing up quite nicely though.


Probably going to go look for a job today...hope that goes well..I have a few places in mind I would like to check back with.

Working on this painting...It is actually turning out rather well considering I am not too familiar with water colors....I usually use oils on canvas...probably going to switch that up a bit...for a while anyway. I feel I can express myself more through watercolors...Anyways I like how this one is turning out anyway.



All in all I have a feeling the next few days are going to be quite interesting.

"my dreams leave me with a feeling of disgust. I am burdened with these feelings. What ever happened to us is long gone. What happened? your smile lingers in the back of my mind. I surrender to the wave. It leaves me gasping for air. In my last moment I see the sun setting over the horizon. I am at peace."

Statistics: Monday Wednesday and Friday 9:35am-10:30am
Basic Life Diversity (Bio.): Monday Wednesday and Friday 1:55pm-2:50pm
Basic Life Diversity Lab: Tuesday 8:30am 11:30am
Greek Mythology: Monday and Wednesday 6pm-7:25pm

I am excited! I have a feeling this will be challenging but I am really looking forward to this semester! =) haha I almost took a physics class with lab as well but decided to drop that and take the greek mythology...probably a good choice...

"Nor yet content, he from his quiver drew,
Sharpened with skill divine, a shining dart:
No need had he for bow, since thus too true
His hand might wound her all-exposed heart;
Yet her fair side he touched with gentlest art,
And half relenting on her beauties gazed;
Just then awaking with a sudden start
Her opening eye in humid lustre blazed,
Unseen he still remained, enchanted and amazed.

The dart which in his hand now trembling stood,
As o'er the couch he bent with ravished eye,
Drew with its daring point celestial blood
From his smooth neck's unblemished ivory:
Heedless of this, but with a pitying sigh
The evil done now anxious to repair,
He shed in haste the balmy drops of joy
O'er all the silky ringlets of her hair;
Then stretched his plumes divine, and breathed celestial air."

I woke up this morning to find a bird flying in my loft. How did it get in, you wonder? Seriously, the only possible way it could have managed to get in here is through the elevator shaft. Even that is questionable, due to the size of the bird and the opening left for it to manage its way in. Either that or someone planted the bird in my loft.


I believe either it hurt itself from flying into the glass, or it is seriously attempting to hijack my loft. As of now it is hiding behind my paintings or behind the side of the couch.

Ok I am going in for the kill...well in this case the rescue?....*picks up broom and decorative pillow for the couch*


Ok so the bird just showed itself and flew at the window until it managed to feel for the opening...and successfully took it! * with the guidance of my shouting.."It's open, the window! It's open!..." over and over while waving the pillow towards the opening of the window. *



Thank you very much nature for that....now for some more coffee.

So I am over this impending feeling of doom...not to say it is gone, I am just not going to focus on it. I am in the mood for some serious life altering changes to come this way... I need to mix things up for a bit, my way of living recently, has driven me almost completely insane. I am bored out of my mind....I have become lazy to the point of almost no return...Ok maybe not as lazy as one can get ,but lazy beyond reasonable taste. When I speak about being lazy I am really talking about the big picture of life as opposed to the smaller details. So this has been kind of a scare tactic my subconscious must have pulled to get me to be motivated enough to do something with my life. It's working.

I still need to find a job, and with some quickness....my cash supply is running low...and I have a ton of bills that are over flowing into even more debt. If any one can help out, or let me know if they hear anything that would be great and very much appreciated. Since my phone is turned off it has made this process even harder....I will have to go back tomorrow and re visit all the places I applied at to check the stasis. brutal.

I am single again and am really looking forward to taking the time to adjust my life as I see fit. There are alot of options for me as of right now....Most of them require some kind of cash deposit to get the ball rolling...so it has been pretty depressing seeing all these options and knowing I can't make the move yet. I just pictured a black panther, ducking down in the jungle somewhere, ready to pounce on it's prey. That about says it all. I feel like i am stuck in that moment. brutal.


I think I just need to hang out with some friends more often. Only problem is lately I have become very unsure of who is my friend anymore. Could be mostly my fault.. although, I feel like it would be unjust to say that is true.... anyway, I am hoping this summer will bring about a social life that I can feel good about. Just having more people in my life who I can relate to and feel close to would be nice. Having some social network in which I feel supported would help. As of now I feel I have been walked over for the past year or so. I am not sure what took me so long to admit this to myself...or really why I put up with it at all.



Long story short....oh wait.



My focus today is art.

I just got back from Richmond VA, Saturday night. Working on stuff for the movie. We accomplished alot, I believe. I had a really great time there, and although it wasn't necessarily a Kung Fu oriented trip, I believe I gained alot of Kung Fu. I left my phone charger there so I haven't really been able to contact anyone... I feel like I need to spend time outside of this loft. someone save me from absolute boredom and isolation. Please.

Every since I got back to Detroit I have had this feeling of doom. I guess it is just the welcoming home feeling. ehhh...or something.

Speaking of Kung Fu......
I am going to experiment with an hour long Sil Nim Tao.

The Detroit Seminar is this weekend. Luckily I was able to get Today through Monday off of work, thanks to my awesome manager Joe. wooo hooo! I am really looking forward to this weekend ,and I hope for some major breakthroughs for everyone involved. I believe this will happen.


This weekend will be great, I have a feeling....



Now time to finish preparing....

So this year has brought alot of change to the table so far. I have a new job working as a waitress at Pizza Papalis in Greek town. Although I'm still a waitress, I feel it is a positive change. Kirill moved to South field to watch over his parents home while they are away in Siberia. Sifu has moved into the loft here at the Atlas Building. Seems to be a positive change for everyone involved.... hopefully everything continues to progress naturally.




Now I am looking to save up some cash flow and pay off some debt in the meantime.

Kirill is singing in Russian and playing the guitar. It sounds very nice,I enjoy his voice.

Hello New World!

Sooo my search for a new job has begun! We shall see where this opening leads....



In the mean time....more artwork!


http://www.flickr.com/photos/lauraannsphotography/

Seems to be a positive achievement.





Whoa. What is with that ladies voice? creepy.

Looks fun though, that would be kind of cool if those replaced cars...